This event will;

change how the rest of my high school years will play out.

If in the end this will end up good or bad I don't know. I have messed feelings about the whole thing. It's becoming pain strikingly clear that things will never be the same. Maybe it just that for the first time I don't have you to catch me when I fall. This is the first thing I have done in 1 year 1 month and 14 days by myself. This is the first time I have truly been on my own. The next week will probably be one of the most frighting or exciting, good or bad, lonely or occupied, up and down weeks I have had in a long time.

I still care about you, I am extremely close to you, you're my best friend. I just wish things had worked out better, maybe someday they will. But I don't know what the future has in store. At least now we seem to be getting along better. It's ashame it took this for us to get along.