2/10/10

For the last week I've felt a void in my life, like something was missing and I was trying to fill it. I realize now that there wasn't a void, there never was, there never will be, because for once I can rely on myself. I'm not afraid of anything. I tell it like it is.

As sure as who I want to be and where I want to go, I am even more unsure on who I am and where I am actually going.

I'm not afraid to face the music. I'll be alone on Valentine's. I hate that holiday anyways. And for a few days it really bugged me that I wouldn't have someone to spend it with. But now the concept doesn't bother me. I mean I'd love to have someone to spend it with but I don't need someone to spend it with. I realized the difference sometime today. And I feel better about it now.

I really don't think anyone reads these anymore.

Dear Matt.

Its your fault so shut up and stop reading all my stuff. okay thanks.

It's a new year

A lot of excepted things have happened to me in the last few weeks. Things I never thought would happen. Things I never thought I would want to happen. I guess you can't predict everything. Maybe it's all a foreshadow of the new year. Which so far has been overall good to me.
I'm not sure if I am ready to let go of 2009. It provided me with a lot of things I learned and grew from. I'm sure 2010 has some plans for me too. I've never been good with letting go of the past. It's become alarmingly clear that I need to make some big choices about my future, and it terrifies me.
I woke up in my own bed today for the first time in over a week, It was a major relief. I am glad to be home and not way out in Bluffton. Thanks to those who stayed out there with me, you keep me sane. It was fun though being away from everything and everyone, but I started miss this island. I like living here regardless of what everyone else has to say about it.

I feel like I am stuck. Like I can't make anyprogress in the ares my life needschanges.

10:54

I feel like I've been out of the loop from just about everyone, who at this time last year were the only people I wanted to spend my time with, and frankly I wouldn't want it any other way. I don't need to know what is going on with people who seem to have so much going on.

People who only seem to want to talk to me when something bad is going, never just to talk or see how I am doing. I was put on the back burner, and you know what that is completely okay.

My life is simple, it isn't complex like it use to be. It's easy. It's nice. It takes place at a relaxed pace. It's so great. I love where I stand right now in my life, I know what I want to do for once in my life, and I don't think it could get any better. Life is good.

I'm starting with the man in the mirror;

I feel that everything I use to know, has changed.

Everything and everyone is so different from what I remember, the last time I reflected on it all. People come and go, but I think that's an understatement.

Micro Wenis;

I haven't written one of these and awhile, and I have seen countless blogs that start with this infamous line. There really isn't much I can update you on, my life has remained the same, however the people in it have not. But I guess that happens to me every year around this time. I was never really one for summer. I want school to start. I find myself running into the same people over and over and never making a very positive impression, but I guess that is just how life goes sometimes. This is not a very important blog, I just need something to do until I grow tired and rest. Then I will once again wake up and goto the dentist and see what on earth is going on with my teeth. As you can guess I am not looking forward to this at all. It's just one of those things I am going to have to deal with and will look back on and not think of as anything important but as for now I am dreading it all.